5/20/07 (Me to Babe)
Babe:
The insurance is NOT cancelled!!! The coverage will be in effect UNTIL you tell me otherwise!!! Take care of yourself, and don’t cancel any doctor’s appointments.

Now, I will address your email. You are not a “burden” to me. Taking care of your insurance (and I wish everything else) is not out of the goodness of my heart; it’s because I love you. Which part of those three words don’t you understand. As for doing “enough”, it’s never enough. If we ever live together, you will know the meaning of being “spoiled” silly.

I meant what I said about taking care of a different plan that covers you only. The reasoning behind this, is that by paying coverage for you alone, will cut that expense in half. Then I can look for coverage here, and both costs should be near what is costing for the MDNY coverage now. Hope this makes sense.

Babe, I get the impression from this letter, that you may believe I don’t care about you anymore. That could not be further from the truth. You are all I think about every day. There are only two ways which I could stop having feelings for you. One is if you outright tell me you don’t love me, and there is never any future hope. Secondly, is if you tell me you have someone else on your life. The truth of either one is ok, I will understand. With either, I will stop hoping.
I say again, the insurance is not cancelled. I do not want to hurt you. Please take care of yourself. And, let me know what you have (and if I can help you) if you want to.

Me

5/23/07 (Babe to Me)

Hi,
Thanks for the email. It's comforting to know my insurance isn't done yet. I still have a couple of appointments to keep. I looked into a health insureance program that was sponsored by Gov. Pataki. It's called Healthy NY. There are some parameters I have to meet, but salary is one of them. I think I could qualify for it. You know I'm a dumb-dumb when it comes to this kind of stuff. Do you think you could check it out for me, please? I Googled Gov. Pataki health insurance and went to a site that allowed me to download an application. Once again, I'm sorry to take so long to get back to you,but...well, you know..my schedule is #$@%$^#.

Also, I'm sorry for all this insurance stuff, but thank you. I'll keep looking for more information, I promise. Regards to all. Me

5/29/07 (Babe to Me)
Hi,How are you doing? Hope all is well with everyone there. Haven't heard from you in a while. I'm still looking into alternative health insurance options. Sorry it's taking so long. Just wanted to update you on my progress with the dr. I had another check-up last Friday. My cholesterol levels are very high. Tryglycerides is 279 and LDL is 175. Apparently, the first # must be below 200 and the second must be below 100. I have to be on a friggin strict diet of low cholesterol crap. No more ice cream, 1/2 & 1/2, butter & cheese. I have to go back in 2 months after following the doctor's diet and be re-checked.

If you need to cancel the insurance, please do so. I absolutely won't be upset at all. You've done so much and definitely enough for me. I'm again sorry for everything.Enough about me...I feel like I only email about my problems.

On a nicer note. The flowers in the boat are once again blooming and look beautiful. They will always remind me of the times you were out there planting and our afternoons in Home Depot (Yuck).....picking flowers and flats......after lunch at Portofino or Friday's of course. Once again....the caterpillars are all over the dam place from my neighbor's tree! A couple more weeks and they'll be gone.I really miss trips to the farm to pick veggies and then the outlets (I don't need anything!!!)...but you always found something for me. My niece Stephanie asks about you from time to time. I'm going to be her sponsor for her Confirmation in October. Do I dare say no!!!!...You DO remember Steph's personality, don't you!! Interestingly, she really liked you..either because you played cards with her, or because she could sense your fear! Michael wanted me to send his regards to you. He definitely remembers everything you did for him. We were just talking about you the other day. We were talking about when we picked him up from work on Wednesday's and always gave him a Cobb salad from Friday's. He said "It was so nice of George to bring me my own salad and not just leftovers". He also said it was great when you picked him up by yourself how you would always ask him if he wanted Taco Bell.

Anyway, enjoy your beautiful weather. The weather here is getting warmer and more beautiful each day. Thankfully, the winter is behind us. I'm keeping my fingers crossed for you to have a mild hurricane season.

I almost forgot to tell you..Pat is moving the office to Massapequa on Sunrise Highway. He finally decided it was too much with the kids being here and the summer coming to keep the office in the house. He rented a small office in a larger office building. Athena and I haven't seen it yet, so I'll keep you up to date. The move should be by mid-June. Hellos to everyone. Take care and thanks again...I'm grateful more than you'll ever know.
Me

5/30/07 (Me to Babe)
Wow Babe, these were such nice words you have sent me in this last email. Thank you so much. Where can I start. Mike, your nieces, our memories, the flowers on the boat, our outings, etc. There is not a single day that goes by that I don’t relive one of those things we did. Those memories is what keeps me going from day to day.
As for Mike, I loved him as if he was my own son. Nothing I would not do for him then or now. Whatever I may have done, was done because of how much you love him, and how I feel about you. I regret my last day with him, was the day he started driving himself to work.

By the way, the same would go for your mother. Of course I remember Stephanie, and Nicole. It wasn’t so much fear, as I felt I could relate to her. I did enjoy playing cards, as well as seeing she (they) got whatever they wanted each time they came over to your house for diner. Xmas was another nice time I had with your whole family. (I miss that feeling).

About you, thanks for telling me about the doctor and what he told you. Cholesterol is serious, but controllable. Please take care of yourself. I need you healthy. The insurance will stay in effect for now. I did look into the Healthy NY you mentioned, but its very confusing. In one paragraph I think you qualify, and the next you don’t. (what that about a total yearly income for all who live in the house?) How about Aetna? Cigna? GHI HMO, HealthNet Inc? HIP? Oxford? All of these are mentioned in the Healthy NY website. Did I ever tell you how much I hate insurance?

I guess its good to hear Pat is finally moving into office space (he should have done this years ago, and made your life easier!) Are you looking forward to this move?

Now about me. I haven’t written because I haven’t even used the computer in days. As I told you Luis was in the hospital for 9 day. He also has water in the lungs. Since they discharged him, he has stayed home because he has had difficulty breathing. He only goes out to dialysis and back into bed. He is on oxygen constantly. Then Julie was admitted to a different hospital a few days ago. She had slurred speech from her high blood pressure. Her top numbers range from 170’s to 220’s. They will keep her there until they can control the pressure. During this time, I have been baby sitting Luis all day. Then there is Tony, Julies other son. (the forgotten one) He is loosing his house to a foreclosure and both his parents have given him money over the past years, but he is very irresponsible, doesn’t think ahead to what he should do, and constantly calls his mother for more money. This is also another reason for her high blood pressure. I really don’t want to get into his case now.

By the way, I love when you talk about yourself, so go ahead and tell me as much as you want to. It will never be enough. Remember: working around the house, the deck, the patio, the bar b que (I did try my best to cook your meat just right), cooking with you in the kitchen (canning the tomatoes for your sauce). The shopping!!!! You always needed that! So, write about whatever you want.

Say hello to all, I miss them all. Again, thanks for sharing your family with me. It made me feel as if I really had a family too.
Me

5/12/07 (Me to Babe)
Babe:
The insurance is NOT cancelled!!! The coverage will be in effect UNTIL you tell me otherwise!!! Take care of yourself, and don’t cancel any doctor’s appointments.

Now, I will address your email. You are not a “burden” to me. Taking care of your insurance (and I wish everything else) is not out of the goodness of my heart; it’s because I love you. Which part of those three words don’t you understand. As for doing “enough”, it’s never enough. If we ever live together, you will know the meaning of being “spoiled” silly.

I meant what I said about taking care of a different plan that covers you only. The reasoning behind this, is that by paying coverage for you alone, will cut that expense in half. Then I can look for coverage here, and both costs should be near what is costing for the MDNY coverage now. Hope this makes sense.

Babe, I get the impression from this letter, that you may believe I don’t care about you anymore. That could not be further from the truth. You are all I think about every day. There are only two ways which I could stop having feelings for you. One is if you outright tell me you don’t love me, and there is never any future hope. Secondly, is if you tell me you have someone else on your life. The truth of either one is ok, I will understand. With either, I will stop hoping.

I say again, the insurance is not cancelled. I do not want to hurt you. Please take care of yourself. And, let me know what you have (and if I can help you) if you want to.

Me

5/12/07 (Babe to Me)
Hi,
I read your email, I know I've continued to be a burden on you financially, and I'm sorry for that. It's only throught the goodness of your heart that you have kept my helath insurance up to date. I'll definitely find a new way to have health ins. Please let me know how much longer I have until my coverage runs out.If it has already, I must cancel any dr. appointments I currently have. You've done enough for me, please don't feel bad about this...it's my fault and my responsibility.
me

5-11-07 (Me to Babe)

Babe, Its great news that Johnny is going to Vegas, and more importantly that he is going to see his grandmother. You wee correct about the Excalibur. We were not too impressed with it, but they should be able to enjoy the time they have there and also enjoy the other hotels. Maybe Alicia will like Vegas and want to move there with John. I wonder if they might take the opportunity to go to one of the Chapels and get married while hey are there? I’m only kidding. Really! As for Mike, I guess he is still into hockey as he used to be. Does he still skate at the rinks we used to take him to, as often as he used to? Does he still enjoy Taco Bell as often as he used to? You know, I truly miss going to Taco Bell, coming back to the house and having dinner, the three of us watching TV. These are memories which will never go away.

I’m sorry to hear about Al. I know you liked him a lot in addition to the great job he did for you with your taxes.

Luis is back in the hospital again. He had a growth form on his left testicle and he never told anyone about it, but it just kept getting worse, bigger, and bigger. A few days ago it started causing him pain and he finally told his mother Monday afternoon, she called his primary doctor, who saw him within hours, and the doctor sent him straight to the hospital. Monday evening, after being admitted, it burst. I believe he will be alright in a few days of taking heavy duty antibiotics.

As for me, I’m still working on my mother’s house. I have all the furniture out, except for the dinning room set, which I can’t seem to unload on anyone. My next step is going to be to paint all the walls in the house, inside and out, and fix a few other things so I can get more value for it when it sells. Everything in the house is over 45 years old, and she never fixed anything. The house needs a new roof, water heater, washer, dryer, remove the five air conditioning units built into the walls throughout the house, and patch that up, and it even needs a new floor. The real estate market is just as bad in Florida as it is in NY, and the prices have steadily come down over the past year, so, maybe it will turn around in the next few months and with a little sprucing up, it may bring a few more bucks for it.

I wish to thank you for remembering about the Old Navy T-shirts, I use the…well, since they do in fact shrink so much, I could use a XXL. But only because it does shrink. My address is 2721 SW 96 Ave. Miami, Fl 33165, but I have a suggestion. Instead of you having to buy it and the expense of mail it, why don’t you tell me what color you would buy for me, and I will go pick one up as if you sent it. The idea is yours. And I will send you a XS for you.

Babe, on a much sour note, I must bring up the subject of health insurance. I suspect that if you are still working for Pat and the Doctor, you don’t have health coverage elsewhere. I don’t really know what your needs are medically, and I certainly do not want to leave you without insurance when you most need it. However, after almost two years of paying over $800 per month, I have to obtain coverage for myself here at an additional cost. And I cannot be paying for two policies for myself, in NY (not using it) and in Florida. Please understand it is strictly a financial situation and not that I do not care about you. I understood you were looking for a full time job that would give you the coverage, and I know it’s tough to get. Perhaps, Babe, if you could find out if there is a health program that you could switch to that would cover just you, and not us, through the company, perhaps that cost would be a lot less than what we are paying now for both of us, and I can take care of that for you. I too will try to find some information which I can pass onto you.

One last thing Babe. Try not to take anything I say as being mean, or nasty, or angry, or negative, or derogatory. I seem to have that problem in getting my thoughts and my feelings into words. I have always loved you. Always cared about you. Always wanted the best for you. So please when you see something from me that seems to be negative, nasty, or angry, try to turn it around and look at it a bit positively, because that is how I mean it. You are the most positive person I have ever met, please, think positively when I write you.
Me


5/6/07 (Babe to Me)

Hi,
How are you? Thanks for the email you sent explainin/apologizing. I really appreciated it. I knew your didn't really mean to be mean, but I'm glad you cleared it up for me.

Nothing really new here...Johnny is going out to Vegas with Alicia to see my mother next week. They're staying in the Excalibur. I know we went there for the buffet one time, but I don't think we were too impressed with it, but they're all excited to be going out there.

Do you remember Al, the man who did my taxes?..He passed away on Friday. When he was here he told me he had been ill with cancer, but was recovering. He said he wasn't sure if he would be able to do taxes next year due to his health. He didn't really look well, so I think he knew he wasn't going to have much time.

I went to a communion party today for Veronica (Pat & Diane's daughter) from Smokey Chimney. It was at the place called Singleton's on the corner of Hempstead Tpke. & Hicksville Road. It was really nice. She looked like a little angel.

Michael isn't happy because the Rangers are out of the hockey playoffs. They lost the game today and were eliminated.

How's Luis & Julie? Send my regards.

How about you? Anything new? Hopefully you're OK. I want to send you the annual 2007 Old Navy 4th of July t-shirt. Can you email me your address? It's that itme of year again, and when I saw them in Old Navy the other day, I immediately thought about you. Should I make it L, XL.....or XXL!!!!!!!! they shrink ya know.

Anyway, have a happy week.....talk to you soon.

Me